When I Lose My Motivation

MMSEL 5

By: Dian Sulistiani / 2010110027

MMSEL course in this semester, I think that is less maximal. I do not know, it is caused by a condition or is less attractive. I just feel less enjoy this semester.

I think that schedule of some courses collide. For example, SEP schedule in SMA 61 on week 5 & 6. It means that I can not join class well. I have to finish so many assignments from some course. On another side, I also have so many preparations for SEP. Finally, I lose. I feel so crazy in this semester. I have to allow my assignment of some course in the SEP week. Moreover, I ever experience “I am lazy to continue my school”. I think that is a top of my shellacking. I do not have motivation.

I reflect myself. I still have so many dreams. My journeys are still long. I have to struggle it well. I push myself more and more. It is not easy for me. Two weeks are long time. Finally, I can finish SEP too. I get motivation from myself and my dream. Yup, I will keep fighting!

Well, the first meeting in MMSEL course after SEP, I think that “I am like a stupid person”. I am lazy to read the material again and I am not ready to join the class. I do not know. When Miss Mima explains the material, I just hear it. I do not have question. It means that “I do not understand” or “I am confused what will I ask”. It is okay. The learning is process.

After go back from campus, I check again the material. I read it more and more. I have to translate the language if I do not understand. It helps me to understand. I get my motivation back by my way. I hope, next semester I can be better again. I also hope that the schedule is better than this semester, so the bad condition does not comes me again. Finally, I am not crazy. J Learn, learn, and learn. I get the important part that my self is my great motivation. J Another people just help me, but decision is in my hands. J