Mathematics in My Memoriam

By: Dian Sulistiani / 2010110027

      I was not clever. My teacher ever said to my parents, “Dian, will live in TK before her ages fill the standard ages of Elementary students.” I was very sad. I did not like TK world. I thought that TK world only played and my friends were kids. I did not like it. So, I asked my father to move me in Elementary School. I was cry and threatened that I will not go to school again. So, my father asked my teacher to permit me in Elementary school. Finally, I will go to Elementary school.

       I struggled hard to get a good rank in first grade because if I did not get it, I will go back in TK. I must do anything so I can. The first lesson that I loved was Mathematics. I did not know why I like it. I like numbers, count, geometry and something like that. I counted anything that I saw it. I wrote the numbers in my door. So, if you go to my home in Blora, you can see it. My doors full my numbers in elementary school.        I like mathematics so much but I did not like memorized like PPKn. I hated it. So, my score only high in the mathematics score but other subject were bad. I got thirteen ranks from sixteen students. Oh God, that was so sad but I believed I can do the best thing. I always got the bad rank until the second grade in elementary school. It became my motivation in third grade. I studied hard. I made visual tools to learn mathematics such as one hundred of branch. I used it to count, addition, and subtraction of numbers. That was very interesting. I also studied hard in all lessons. Finally, I got fifth ranks in my class. That was great in my life. My parents and I were proud. That was like a dream.

      My achievement became my motivation. I studied hard until sixth grade in elementary school. My ranking balanced. I became ten top in my class. The last ranking in my elementary school, I got fourth rank. I was proud so much. I loved mathematics more and more. My elementary school was finished. Good bye my elementary school.

      When I was in junior high school, I got D class. I got a new situation. I thought that I must study hard again. I wanted the highest rank in this class. I had mathematics achievement. I still remember, the first topic in mathematics lesson was a set. I heard well for my teacher’s explanation. I studied carefully. The first score in my mathematics examination, I got one hundred. It was a highest score in my class. I was proud. It was my motivation that I can do it in my other subject. Yup, my struggle did not finish until it. My way still long time. I struggled, struggled and struggled. My parents supported me so much. Finally, I got the first rank in my class.

      The next year, I always got three top ranks in my class until third grade in junior high school. My mathematics score always above eighty. I had my unforgettable memoriam of mathematics when I got the perfect score in my National final examination. Yup, I got one hundred in mathematics subject. Wow, that was great. 100 in UN? It was like dreams. My junior high school was finished. Good bye my Junior High School.

       The next school was Senior High School. I got second top rank in list of my cohort. So, I got X2 in this year. I always thought that I must get the highest score. Yup, it was OK but after I was more adult than before, I did not thought highest score. It was only score, right? I think the process is more important than score. It was proven. My score was standard like my friends. But I have studied about the process of lesson. It made me became the different people. I love myself. Finally, my teacher said, “Dian, you will be a representation of school in mathematics Olympiad. I believe you can do it.” Oh my God. I was like a dream. I wanted it from I was in elementary school. I always dreamed about that. I was proud to hear it.

        I studied hard to join the Olympiad. I struggled hard but I have not got the best thing yet. I failed to be winner. I was sad but it just a game. I must try again. I believed I can do it one day. It is OK.

      The next semester, I always got three top ranks in my class. I ever got mathematics score in my report was 96. It is high score, I think. My teacher supported me so much. My friends gave spirit for me, “Okay Dian. You can do it.” I am proud them. My teachers are my motivation. I pay attention so much for their explanation. One day, I imagined that I am mathematics teacher. Wow, that is great. I loved mathematics and science lessons so much. It will be my motivation. I wanted to be a mathematics teacher.

       In 2009, the last semester in senior high school, I had a big problem. I wanted to be teacher so I must be university graduate but my parents have not money for it. So, I tried to join UGM scholarship. I took a pure mathematics subject. But Allah gave other ways for me. I failed for UGM scholarship. I was very sad. It made broken heart for me. I was stress and hated my self. My parents were very sad.

       One day, Allah gave lightness for me. I got up again. I studied hard again. I loved myself again. Although my mathematics in National Examination, I got 60 but I was happy. I want not disappointed again. I believed, I will be great on one day. I tried again for scholarship. I found ITB Untuk Semua Scholarship. I took a mathematics subject but I was not afraid again. I prepared the best thing. If I fail again, that is OK. I waited the announcement well. Finally, Allah gave other ways again. I failed but I still kept spirit. I believed, one day, I will be a mathematics teacher.

       After senior high school, I worked in bakery store. I became cashier. You can know my job, right? Yup, I managed money in the store. I worked carefully. I was happy, I got the mathematics again. I can know how to add and subtract the mathematics in cashier program. I worked hard until one year and I always dreamed that I will go the campus.

       Finally, in 2010, I tried scholarship from Sampoerna School of Education. I was not afraid for fail again. I must keep my spirit. Alhamdulillah, Allah gives the best thing for me. SSE accepted me in mathematics department until now. I met many great people in here. Mathematics is one of my motivations in my life. I studied many experiences and a new method in SSE. I have so many great families that they always support me to be a great people. I love SSE, mathematics, my parents, my brother, my family, my friends, my lecturers, and all people that always support me. Actually, my dreams to be a mathematics teacher will be real in my life soon. Thank you so much, God.

         Thank you for all. Mathematics is fun and unique. Do the best thing but do not ask something be the best. ^_^